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Monday, February 08, 2010

heartwrenching
heart aches real bad
tears flow uncontrollably
confusion all over the place

what is going on?

laleeee ;
x 1:24 AM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

today is totally a depressing day

have been really sad over my spoilt red samsung phone since its my fav amongst all the phones i had
and tonight i did a really stupid thing not thinkin for a second there and formatted my memory card
causing me to add a loss of hundreds of songs to the loss of hundreds of numbers since i didnt save any contacts in my sim card
PLUS the fact that mummy interuptted my show tonight
and plus the moment of truth when i juz clicked on my results

sociology: A
malay: B+
psychology: B
anatomy: B
mobility: B
OTTP 1A: B
physiology: C

i knew i did badly for physio
but i juz wished i could have done better for anat to get an A
and im sad i didnt get my A for psych paper. why?! i thought psych wasnt bad
these 3 is enough to make me depressed.
if psych and anat was better.my gpa would have at least hit a 3
but nw its only 2.8 far far away from my expectations
i should stop playin durin sem time and be a full time mugger
yes thats wad lalee have to and will do in sem 2
pls do it lalee

tml shall be the one and only day for mourning and cryin with my sad korean dramas
and yes lalee u have to stop thinkin about it
u have to

nights world

laleeee ;
x 3:22 AM

Thursday, August 21, 2008

ok finally freedom is here
psych paper was not bad
physio was like crap and anat was about mayb 20% better
totally not expecting anythin for physio and its gonna pull down my GPA to the max
anat well i spotted wrongly for trunk and didnt bother bout biomechanics so hmm my A is def. not in the bag, cross my fingers for the best i guess
i really need to work harder!

holidays are here but i dun really have much plans for nw
except that i know i need to go find all my frens that i have neglected these few months
but they have all embarked on their uni lives.
its my turn to listen to the interesting back to sch tales ;-)
gg on a japan study tour on 3rd oct so yep lookin forward to that!
haha my student role for hols
gotta try and finish up my driving as well!
plus do the things i was supposed to have done the last long hols i had after As like my photos!
hahahahah

anyways sent aunt genie and brad and dean off at T3 on tues night
they were back for too short a period this time round!
really sucks to wait for another 2 yrs to see them agn!

anyways, overall the yr hasnt been all that bad so far
but i've been gettin into bouts of depression really bad
juz last wk had a big quarrel at home
i really should learn how to deal with my emotions better
i wouldn't be able to be a gd therapist if i cant do tt can i?
i duno, sometimes life seems juz so meaningless
home doesnt feel like home
ohwells

laleeee ;
x 10:57 PM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

exams have started and is halfway through with 3 done
but so far, all have been bad for me
for today's mobility prac,tho i felt very prepared
i still became too anxious/nervous/flustered
totally screwed it up
my case study was darn easy but i was juz too flustered to do it properly
and to have stupidly said no to a chance in repeating the procedures again
PLUS i freaking hell ripped a hole in my nike bag when i went off
still was quite nervous over the prac while takin my bag to go off
i was too rush and yep there goes my $89 nike bag
i think i thought too much and didnt put what i know into action properly
didnt ask for allocation of marks so i was kinda shocked over the allocation of marks over what i have to do
i mean like omg 30m per qn?! and i did the 3 qns like really fast
ok i didnt take note of the timing but to me everyone felt like wham time juz flew past
i should have calmed down and did better in this
really disappointed in myself

breathe and live for anatomy&biomechanics/psychology/physiology

laleeee ;
x 9:58 PM

Monday, August 04, 2008

我知道我变漂亮了《一切完美》主题曲: 石欣卉

过去的批评嘲讽 Let it go Let it go
过去的轻蔑冷落 Let it go Let it go
有些人口不饶人却忘了瞧瞧自己
又有什么资格

时刻都善良待人 Let’s move on Let’s move on
时刻都做好本分 Let’s move on Let’s move on
有些人心思浅薄绝不是宽容
自暴自弃的理由

也许确实也受过言语打击
也许从来也没什么好际遇
但千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里
我们又不会妨碍这世界继续美丽

我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我被注意了
曾难过失落
微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流

我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我也豁达了
不自卑不埋怨
就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美迷住每个人的眼

laleeee ;
x 12:57 AM

exams are coming!im dead
TOTALLY

but i had to go out this wkend
its rare that aunt genie get to come back with her 2 boys (bradley and dino) from england
the last time they came back was 2 yrs ago, can u imagine
the next time they come back, i think these 2 angmoh kids will not wanna be running arnd playin anymore, they'll most probably have girlfriends too by then hahah.
sat had a really late lunch with them at 4pm and we did a lil grocery shopping before gg back to the hotel to catch the ndp preview, fireworks and all the plane stunts.
we were on the 46th floor! had a really good view of marina and the surrounding area.
tho the fireworks display was a lil off angle from our building
we were facing the platform instead of the fireworks side so didnt get a full view
but still got to catch the planes stunts.really cool
holed up in the room the whole night and had some shokudo takeaways later in the night
we finished up a ton of snacks as well, such pigs
bradley became more mischevious and his actions more like his dad
still the more handsome of the two lol

and today(sunday) thanks to aunt genie, we had a treat from my granduncle at geylang's no signboard seafood restaurant
the geylang branch is still the best i must say. their crabs rock!
esp the chilli crabs with the mantou!
haha but even with 8 crabs, there were not enough pincers to go arnd for the younger ones like moi! the adults were left to eat the legs lol
granduncle booked two big tables for a total of 26 ppl,
so yea tonight's bill was about 1000 with the big feast that he ordered for us.
can already feel my stomach growing.
but ohwells, i guess its gonna be feast all the way till aunt genie goes back with the boys on the 19th
they'll be setting off for china in a couple of days coming back on the 12th and finally home sweet home to england on 19th
mental note to myself: take a picture with the boys before they leave!

exams. hai.

anyways hooked onto my two perfect cut songs haha.
i want the kit chan cd!

laleeee ;
x 12:27 AM

你没想像中爱我《一切完美》插曲/片尾曲:石欣卉

你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是担忧藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下
我好傻

你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下
我好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更寂寞

你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放心上
我有一丝无奈也有一些明白
该放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

啊... 谁说我不在意空等候
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

呜... ...

你没想像中爱我

laleeee ;
x 12:16 AM

Sunday, July 27, 2008

quotes i like from perfect cut

遇见一个人需要一秒，
认识一个人需要一分钟，
喜欢一个人需要一个小时，
爱上一个人需要一天，
可是如果没有缘分，却需要用一辈子去忘记这个人

世界上没有丑人，只有穷人

只要包容一切的不完美, 一切都会变的完美

love the 2 songs.

laleeee ;
x 1:00 AM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

AHHHHHHHHHHH

ok today was an eventful day for me!

lets blog about happy things first

WELCOME HOME MANDA!
steamboat dinner at perry's suggested by dear nicole moosa who can keep secrets for once.HAHA
amanda ang totally just walked through perry's door as tho she has never left
like omg! it felt so surreal,
one moment i was happily being an elephant and stuffing my face with food from the pot
the next moment this figure walks thru as tho she juz decided to teleport from aussie
and im sure y'all can guess, many screams followed
manda, you give the best surprises and i sure missed all the stupid comments from u
but most of all just having you around! reuniting an almost complete 10
im really glad u're back love!
ps: ds and david you're not forgotten
the familiarity of it all plus laughter all night accompanied by ben&jerry's dublin mudslide
of coz not forgettin the peektures but considering that i've gained weight these 3 wks,
i think i look disgustin in most of them
(reminder to self: STOP BEING AN ELEPHANT EVERDAY AND LOSE WEIGHT!!!)
presents for everyone from manda and jessie!
planned for our next hopefully not so wild LGD nw that both sonn and manda are back
AND picnic outing AND CJLMXLB before the few of them sets off for melbourne next wk

urghhh, its so unfair that all my friends have been going on countless trips around the world while im stuck in singapore trying to have a balance between sch and social life!
i wanna go overseas too!
i need to study hard!
EXAMS ARE OMINOUSLY LOOMING NEAR!
first paper 6th aug, pray for me.

ok so anyway the first part of my day which was the not so happy part
i spent most of the first half of the day feeling really indignant and irritated for my dear clsmate
how can anyone be so clueless/without any trace of EQ?
how can anyone be so insensitive?
how can anyone like that have lived through 21 years of his life with that warped behaviour?
how can anyone like that be in my class?
how am i gonna survive with that someone for the rest of the 3 years in NYP?
ps: even if i get bad karma, i must still say i will never be able to learn to like you

that's all for today folks.

laleeee ;
x 1:00 AM